I have heard that I don’t give up. In truth I have wanted to give up so many times. It hurts when all your efforts seem wasted on a goal that as things stand you will never reach. It is worse when something you really want is taken away at that moment when you really believed that you were going to get it.
I have been there. I have felt the despair, the sorrow and the “why did I even try”. No one really understands because we all want different things. What matters to you does not matter to me. When you feel suicidal about it, people can only judge you for being juvenile, selfish or such other thing.
I believe that walking away means that you do not believe that you have the power to face the situation. You do, the fact that you exist in the particular space and time facing the circumstances that you are means that you have the ability to deal with anything you are faced with. I believe God, destiny would not let you be in that situation if you have not the power to deal with the hard times.
Life is about challenges. Think of the earth, the mountains, the valleys, the deserts and the savanna. The mountains are cold, the valleys are steep and the deserts are dry. It is not easy. If you walk away because it is too hot in the Sahara you will never know of the beauty of the barrenness of the sand dunes, the shifting landscape. In this same way you cannot give up on your dreams just because it is getting difficult. To really live you need to feel complete. You will never feel that way until you have done everything you could to get that which you want.
Success is sweet. When you feel that you can’t try anymore think of the joy of success. Think about how good it will feel when your struggle has borne fruit. Nothing feels better than getting something you have worked hard to get. Don’t let the weight of despair drag you back to zero. Think of the future not the past. Stop thinking about all the things you could have done different think about what your plan is going to get you in a year or two when it is complete.
Do not walk away. I know you want to because it seems the work is not worth it any more. If you walk away now you might miss out on the best thing of your life.