Someone called me ancient and something else basically to mean am not in with the programme. Reason? My facial expression suggested I didn’t think much of the new nail thing they were doing. It was like I was in one of those mean girls movies for a moment. In the movie I probably would have started a cat fight which I would have lost *sigh*.
Thing is the tantrum this kind person threw was unwarranted. This person didn’t know what I was thinking and… why the insults. Sure they might have been having a bad day but why the fit. Truth be told I was thinking it didn’t look neat you know, like them. But my main thought was why the barbie doll was going goth. Totally not them.
I felt hurt because the paragraph used to make the point was unfair, whatever I might have been thinking I didnt deserve it.
Maybe am still a little pissed. I did let it slide. Unlike the movie people.
The point here is I have been wondering whether I a door-mat type. As in am I willing to let people walk all over me to keep the peace? Am I mistaking wussiness for understanding? You know am willing to allow a person to insult me because they are having a bad day while I sit placidly, smilling sheepishly. I believe even when I had really mean things to say I didn’t because I thought it wasn’t right. When I did say a mean thing I apologized. Not my best apology but apology none the less. So isn’t it ok for me to expect the same?
I hate confrontation, many people do, but am not sure the way I react is appropriate for healthy relationships. Think, am worried that person might see this and get angry and desire to have a conversation if you know what I mean. Wuss right? *facepalm*
I fear that I lack girl balls.