Carpe Diem


vlcsnap-2017-02-26-16h59m30s112 (2)People are always saying “Life is short” and “Live like you will die tomorrow”. I am not criticizing it is important to live life to the fullest. Seize the day, seize the night… Not postpone anything because you will miss out on life. The problem is when you use that as an excuse to do things without putting enough thought into them.

I feel that seizing the day should mean that we live a life with meaning. When I am 70 I want to look back and think I touched someone’s life somehow, you know? I want to feel fulfilled. I don’t want to look at young people with hatred and resentment because I am jealous of the time they still have to live. I don’t want to waste it defying norms for nothing more than proving that it is within my power to defy. I want to spend it living.

One cannot enjoy life if they are constantly asking for permission. It is unhealthy to constantly want to have someone tell you what to do. I am not saying that you shouldn’t obey the laws of God and those of men. The point I want to make is we all need to choose to live a certain way and not worry that it will make us stick out. Why should you be unhappy just so that you can blend in? Why should you live your life constantly trying to disappear even in your very unusual crowd of one?

God made you as he did not so that you can constantly try to be like Chris or Angela. He didn’t make a mistake when he made you short or dark skinned. So your smile creeps people out, is that reason enough not smile when you want to? Stop worrying so much about making other people comfortable that you forget you need to be comfortable too.

It is very easy to guilt me. A lot of the time I have to remind myself that it doesn’t matter how nice I am someone somewhere will get offended. I can’t protect everyone’s feelings, we are different and what I think is ok is not ok with quite a number of the people I know.

Choose to live a certain way and don’t apologize for it. Seize the opportunity that life gives to do that which your heart desires, to reach for your dreams. Don’t waste time trying to show people that you don’t care about the rules or apologizing for breaking said rules. In the end the only person that matters is you. Will you be satisfied with the life you will have lived?

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My TV Watching Family

I was watching TV the other day and this guy says he wants a family to watch TV with. At first it seems like something silly to say. Family means responsibility, work, patience and a whole lot of stuff that is not as fun as just watching your favourite shows alone. But in truth we all need people we can share the little things in life.

It is the reason why I also decided that I want a family to watch TV with. I want a family to share my favourite shows with. Even with our different likes we will still sit and enjoy the shows that makes each of us laugh. We will watch football, soap operas and even Disney cartoons. We will criticize, laugh at each other and celebrate because while watching TV we grow closer.

I want a family to choose what movie we will watch Friday night.  Children who want to watch Frozen and a husband listing the lessons they would learn from watching The Expendables.  We shall all probably watch Frozen because we have seen the Muppet movie too many times and all that Christmas knife throwing is not children appropriate.

I want a family to share the remote with. We all know that share will mean fight over.  People I can blame when it is lost. People I can order to switch to my favourite show because well I am the mum. I would like a husband to make tea for while he catches up on the news of the day. Children I can convince to eat their four o’clock porridge so that they can see Jake beat up Captain Hook.

Family is not easy. All those different people having the worst day ever can drive anyone crazy. All that frustration can result in painful things being said. I want a family I can just sit with in front of the TV saying nothing but sure that we will never be alone no matter how bad the circumstances.

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The Invitation


Someone shared this poem. I thought it said something about them but it didn’t or maybe I misunderstood them. That said I think it is a great poem and I would like to share. It inspired me it might inspire you too.

The Invitation

                                By Oriah

It doesn’t  interest me

what you do for a living.

I want to know

what you ache for

and if you dare to dream

of meeting your heart’s longing.


It doesn’t interest me

how old you are.

I want to know

if you will risk

looking like a fool

for love

for your dream

for the adventure of being alive.


It doesn’t interest me

what planets are

squaring your moon…

I want to know

if you have touched

the centre of your sorrow

if you have been opened

by life’s betrayals

or have become shriveled and closed

from fear of further pain.


I want to know

if you can sit with pain

mine or your own

without moving to hide it

or fade it

or fix it.


I want to know

if you can be with joy

mine or your own

if you can dance with wildness

and let the ecstacy fill you

to the tips of your fingers and toes

without cautioning us

to be careful

to be realistic

to remember the limitations

of being human


It doesn’t  interest me

if the story you are telling me

is true.

I want to know if you can

disappoint another

to be true to yourself.

If you can bear

the accusation of betrayal

and not betray your own soul.

If you can be faithless

And therefore trustworthy


I want to know if you can see Beauty

even when it is not pretty

every day.

And if you can source your own life

from its presence.


I want to know

if you can live with failure

yours and mine

and still stand at the edge of the lake

and shout to the silver of the full moon,



It doesn’t interest me

to know where you live

or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up

after the night of grief and despair

weary and bruised to the bone

and do what needs to be done

to feed the children.


It doesn’t interest me

where or what or with whom

you have studied.

I want to know

what sustains you

from the inside

when all else falls away.


I want to know

if you can be alone

with yourself

and if you truly like

the company you keep

in the empty moments.


To me this poem is a reminder that life is not perfect but nothing beats knowing that no matter how difficult the circumstances you will wake up put on your overalls and keep going.

You can learn more about Oriah and her poetry by checking out Check out her blog “The Green Bough” too.



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Dear Kenyan Politician

Dear Kenyan Political Leaders,

I have lived in this country since I was born. It is a lovely place, very nice place.  You guys have lived here longer than I have. We have survived a lot of things, even when KANU was at its most unfriendly we survived and thrived. I don’t deny that we are imperfect; we probably will never be anything better than flawed.

We need leaders, we are social beings and require order and that starts with a leader. Think bees, ants, lions even elephants. There is always a leader, there needs to be a leader. Someone to rally behind.

We have seen all of you in government, all of you. None of you hasn’t had a chance to try running this country and all of you have done the same thing. You have done your best to ensure that you made money and your friends made money. Which is ok after all this is a capitalist society. Government has never exactly cared about ordinary mwananchi. We have lived with that, we live with that. To survive this we need to be free to work and earn a living.

So, we need for the nonsense to stop. The bickering over who we like better needs to stop. Come on, why pretend you care about what we think, you don’t, not at all. You are using us in your little rich people tiff. Why keep dragging us into it?

You convince us to run around in the street because you have made sure we have no jobs to go to. We run around hoping that when you are the leader we will benefit. We never do, we go back to our miserable shanties, our miserable once a week casual jobs and you go back to your lavish lifestyles.

We need you to settle this away from our miserable lives. You need to stop pretending we matter. Stop using us. Just do your thing far, far, far, away from us. We need to pay bills; school fees, rent,power, water  food… You know those things you people don’t have struggles providing for your families. So, find a way to settle this without putting us in the middle.

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When you are not good enough…


Every person goes through that part of the week, month or year when they feel like a tiny bit of sand in world of boulders. It may be because you can’t get the job you want. It could be that your dream girl or your drool worthy dream boy doesn’t know you exist, forget notice your new khakis.  Deep down you believe you should get what you want. You are not alone, it happens to everyone. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt, it does and it sucks.

So what do you do when it feels like no one knows you exist? When all you want to do is go to bed and stay there because facing your life will be looking your inadequacies in the face. And inadequacies tend to laugh and sneer.

First thing to do is remember you can never please everyone. Take the Tyra Banks maxim “SO WHAT!” and be fierce while doing it. Your current boss might not appreciate your hard work but he is not every boss out there. So she doesn’t spare you a second glance. She is not worth the time you have already spent wondering how to get bigger muscles and money to buy a car you can ill afford. My point is you need to realize that life is more about you being happy than making others happy. As my brother Edward will say “I will not make myself unhappy to make you happy”.

You cannot control everyone. I have always known I am a bit controlling. I don’t want you to change who you are but it would be nice…J Seriously though it is important that you realize you can’t manipulate and order everything and everyone. Some people won’t like you, others will just be plain nasty to your sweet self and others just don’t know you exist. You need to chill (do people still say that) chill, relax. Que Sera Sera. Work on accepting that sometimes even with your charm and good looks people will probably not do what you want them to do.

Most importantly remember feeling small is rarely about you, it is usually about other people and their feeling towards you. You need to stop measuring your worth by other people’s behavior towards you. Know your worth and don’t base it on what anyone thinks. In your life, your opinion of you is the most important. I am not saying not to take good advice just don’t bend over backwards so people like you.

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Never Give Up



I have heard that I don’t give up. In truth I have wanted to give up so many times. It hurts when all your efforts seem wasted on a goal that as things stand you will never reach. It is worse when something you really want is taken away at that moment when you really believed that you were going to get it.

I have been there. I have felt the despair, the sorrow and the “why did I even try”. No one really understands because we all want different things. What matters to you does not matter to me. When you feel suicidal about it, people can only judge you for being juvenile, selfish or such other thing.

I believe that walking away means that you do not believe that you have the power to face the situation. You do, the fact that you exist in the particular space and time facing the circumstances that you are means that you have the ability to deal with anything you are faced with. I believe God, destiny would not let you be in that situation if you have not the power to deal with the hard times.

Life is about challenges. Think of the earth, the mountains, the valleys, the deserts and the savanna. The mountains are cold, the valleys are steep and the deserts are dry. It is not easy. If you walk away because it is too hot in the Sahara you will never know of the beauty of the barrenness of the sand dunes, the shifting landscape.  In this same way you cannot give up on your dreams just because it is getting difficult. To really live you need to feel complete. You will never feel that way until you have done everything you could to get that which you want.

Success is sweet. When you feel that you can’t try anymore think of the joy of success. Think about how good it will feel when your struggle has borne fruit. Nothing feels better than getting something you have worked hard to get.  Don’t let the weight of despair drag you back to zero. Think of the future not the past. Stop thinking about all the things you could have done different think about what your plan is going to get you in a year or two when it is complete.

Do not walk away. I know you want to because it seems the work is not worth it any more. If you walk away now you might miss out on the best thing of your life.

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